Decisions

If you knew something was wrong about your past what would you do?
Would you hide it away from light? And punish it for being there...
Would you shy away from it, too scared about what it meant?

It seems we do that to survive, to keep moving forward, parts broken and hanging off.
But it is an incomplete existence to drag parts of you behind and away from the light that you are.

I will choose to bring it inside of me, to love it fiercely, to protect and be a champion for myself.
When I do this I only gain joy, not inherit the pain of the past.
The past is done and finished.  Nothing can change that, but I can change how I see myself.
Or how I move in the world with this piece that has been kept away in the dark alone and afraid.

I always feel strange when I am doing this.  Floating and unfocused.
I know that it is from the hidden part....it has had to stay unfocused, unseen for so long it has forgotten how to be seen.  Patience and stillness are the methods of letting these things heal.
You cannot force, you cannot do anything but be respectful knowing that place is raw and unfinished.

I have made my decision to bring things forward into the light.
What will you choose for yourself?
It's not the easy way.
Hard and powerful is this path.
Worth every bit.

Blossoming.

Moving beyond.

Growing up, out, in.

I want to be in a state of perpetual blossom.

Never fading, never closing, just opening and awakening.

Beautiful and radiant, fresh forever.

Red girl, blue girl.

Colors are a expressions of the vibrations of light.

If you look at each girl, blue and red they speak different stories.

Blue is cool and relaxed, red is inward intense.

Expansive in blue like water, vast and moving.

Intense like fire in red, hot and focused.

Breathe in cool blue, out the hot fire.

Both are necessary.

Blanketed.

Wrapping myself in light.

Luminous and warm, covered and protected.

Blanketed in good things, right things.

Outward things can change because room was made inside.

An empty room.

Sometimes emptiness lets new things wander in to try on the space.

Some things stay, sometimes things and people leave because the room isn't a good fit.

I don't really know yet the proper arrangement.

Don't need to know yet, just enjoying the quiet and openness.

Wrap yourself in light, it feels good.

Bold Girl

Seed.

Seeds contain information for life.

Genetic history and future promise.

Seeds are strong and hard, but their essence is fragile.

Each being is born from a seed, a spark.

Energy looking for a place to land, to grow.

Reaching upwards to the light.

Fairy of Beginnings.

It's time to start anew.

To begin another cycle.

It's not a straight course, but a round spiral.

Round and round we go.

This time things will be different.

Or the same with a new brush stroke added.

Or maybe we do things the same cause they worked.

Anyway, the fairy of beginnings is there to wash the past, refresh, reboot.

Now we wake up, try our new eyes toward our future, let's see what is to be!